Edit: yep it's fixed.And did i happen to mention this was entierly done with a mouse?.Well now i have obviously. And to save confusion Nico is a dragon not a horse like creature.

It's always raining on my parade.Icey cold droplets of water sting and slice at my flesh like tiny blades and chill me to the bone.Looking just slightly to the right i see a light so bright yet also so far away.I've been climbing for so long that i don't even remember what day it is what year and month it is.Spring, summer, autume or winter, the seasons have flown by in the blink of an eye.I can't keep up so how much longer can i keep going?.Keep striving to reach that light that will bring me peace?.It would be so easy to hurl myself off these hights and into the dark abyss bellow and wait till i hit the ground at some point where bones will break and heart at last give out.Eternal rest may be the only peace i will find some day.I'll keep fighting for now but eventually .... maybe i'll give up"

A vent picture.Although it's just to get some emotions out there i am pretty pleased with it.It's my first complete digital with no handdrawn scanned line art with a complete somewhat background.

It's nico dragon in the rain.Nico crys black tears for those who don't know.He may be an angle but theres one heck of a story behind him ... at some point i'll wite it.

Just today i felt really really down.Really depressed it was so bad i went in my room and cried for an hour till i fell asleep from exhaustion.I guess thats what happens when you bottle everything up.To be honest i'm scared ... it's kind of stupid i know my horses will be fine but i've already lost two befor .... anytime any horse of mine gets sick i panick to no end.I've got noone to talk to here, sure nans home but just lately i don't feel that theres any point.Lately she's been grouchy and just .... really on my back and when i do try to talk to her she is totaly ignoring me cause she's to busy with her stupid internet canasta game to care.Mums in tasmania so i can't talk to her ... but to be honest i don't think i would talk to her about it.I think it's one of those things where you just need one of your friends to sit down with you and do something so stupid like accidently fall of the bed when they go to sit down or something like that to make you laugh you know?.But since we've moved around so much all my friends i've lost contact with ... so theres another problem.

I feel like an idiot blurting this all out here .... but i need to vent it out somewhere, get it out of my system.

Art a (c) to me